Focused

So, today I sent the boys to St. Peter without me so that I could get a bunch of stuff done. Of course, when it came time for the boys to leave, I got teary-eyed. Little P didn't seem to mind, but I was the one having a hard time with having a day at home without him.

Anyway, I left as soon as they left to get a couple errrands done. I completed one but couldn't complete the other because Kinko's wasn't open today.

Then I grabbed some lunch and came home. I sat down at the computer and worked from about 12:45 until about 2:15 then decided to take a break which was only supposed be 30 minutes. It turned into an hour long break as I decided to try out the Kaboom bathroom cleaner I had purchased. And if you know me and my cleaning ethic, you understand why my 30 minute break turned into an hour long one.

Then around 3:30, I came back to the computer and worked on some reports and stuff for work. I finished up all the work related things that I need to do at about 7:00 pm. So now, I have only two more things on my list to do, along with my regular get ready for school list.

However, I need to take a break from the stuff I need to do to pump. I realized that I didn't do it last night or this morning and I have been feeling it since this afternoon. This phasing nursing out thing isn't as easy as I had hoped. And for the life of me, I can't remember how I did it when L-train was little.

The mail

Sometimes all you need in order to keep on going is to get actual mail in the mail, something that breathes a new life into your plans for the future. It should keep you going for at least a little while.

To the zoo

If you know me, you know how much I LOVE (read with dripping sarcasm) hot weather. So, you may find it hard to believe that we packed up the whole family and went to the zoo today, with the temp at 87 with a heat index of 91. We met up with a college friend of my husband's and her little girl. We did both of the indoor exhibits before taking a break for an ice cream treat. Then we did venture outdoors to go to the Grizzly Coast to see the Grizzly Bears. They are always fun to see.

Needless to say, we needed a little down time, and something cool to drink, after the zoo for the boys' cheeks to switch back from rosy red to pale. But 30 minutes in the 'cool' 76 degrees made everyone feel refreshed. And even though baby and big brother did not have a nap prior to the zoo, neither fell asleep after, although daddy and I could have used a nap.

4 years ago tonight

Do you remember what you were doing exactly four years ago tonight? Apparently, I was going to bed, unaware that it would be the last night that I would be a part of a two person household...

...unaware that when I woke up just moments before the alarm went off that Friday morning, that I wasn't going to be going to work that day...

...unaware that in 7 short hours, I would be greeting a beautiful baby boy...

...unaware that in 4 years from that night, I would be frosting cupcakes and wrapping presents to help celebrate my baby's 4th birthday.

Happy early birthday little man! Mommy loves you!

Another year older...

So tomorrow is my husband's birthday. We did the big family dinner last night because his aunt was still in town, but she was leaving today so we wanted to do it while she was still here. Also, we couldn'd do it tomorrow night because he and I have tickets to the new Target Field. I keep apologizing that this birthday isn't going to go exactly like one might think a birthday should, to which he keeps replying, "So what? We're going to a Twins game." I really do believe that is the perfect gift for him since it's something he likes to do, and with the new stadium, he is dying to check that out, and what better day than his birthday? But I just felt bad that there wasn't more fanfare around his birhtday. He said that he didn't need it because he isn't a girl. Nice. But anyway, happy birthday (a night early) honey!

Long meeting

So yesterday, we had this meeting that was supposed to be 30 minutes but went on to be more than 90 minutes long. That's all well and good. However, a little girl who knows her speech times came in with the principal to ask if she missed speech because she was worried that she had. There's me, not feeling well and being in the process of packing up my things to leave, says, "No. We had a meeting. You didn't miss speech." The principal gave me a look. But really, what I wanted to say was, "What are you trying to do? Get me fired?" to the little girl. I only thought it, I didn't really say it.

Newest "laws" at work

Today, we received an email saying that if you are not a classroom teacher with a homeroom, you should not have a computer. It's not that they don't want us to have access, but...

I stopped reading after that. I was so pissed. Are you even kidding me? I cannot stay in an environment like that. Does anyone even know what it is I do? Does anyone in the office even realize that I have to have a computer in order to complete my job? I don't think they have any concept. At all.

I asked my husband if God takes a look at all the events going on in your life and based on where you are sitting, he decides whether or not you deserve more good or bad things. He says that God doesn't work that way. I wonder what way he is thinking about my job? And I wish I knew if he was going to provide something better for next year, or if I have to suck it up. I wanna cry thinking about having to do that. I don't know which would be worse for me personally: not having a job, or having to work under the micromanagment for another year.