I make myself sick.

I wonder if this has ever happened to anyone else in the world, but I get so stressed out with things that I have to do that I end up making myself sick worrying about them. Currently, I am in the process of writing speech-language goals for two students that I should have the goals completed for before the end of the day on Tuesday. Then, I am working on a three-year assessment report for a meeting that will be tomorrow after school. I haven't even hardly touched the report. I have updated the information so that it is about this student, but I haven't put in actual results yet. I have this feeling that it's going to be a long night.

All that work related stress aside, I have no desire to do anything when I get home. Last night, I brought all my stuff home but then had no desire to work on anything. I got myself all set up to work on the report for the assessment meeting tomorrow, and then I got tired. It didn't help that I had this horrible headache. Sonny says that the headache is from being so stuffed up. It doesn't matter. It feels horrible. Even writing about it now, nearly 20 hours later, makes my head hurt.

All I can say is that I am glad that I came to work today, even if I didn't get all the things done that I was hoping to. I wanted to stay home and get some rest so I could feel better but I had all this stuff to do at work so that I couldn't afford to stay home and not get things done. It's weird how having a child changes that. I used to be able to stay home and rest when I didn't feel good, now it would probably just be more work to stay home when I am not feeling well. It would be okay if Lukin actually went to daycare. But it's like if I don't feel well then that's an out for Sonny's parents to not have to babysit. I don't feel good. Why would I want to spend the day playing with my son and cuddling him for naptime and getting him sick? I guess I shouldn't complain. This has only happened once where they left when I came home from school. I haven't really used a lot of sick days this year.

Okay, well that gave you something new to read and it gave me a break from my report. So I guess I better get back to work.