A new job

So, Thursday, while we were waiting to board the plane to Fargo, I noticed that I missed a call. I recognized the phone number as the school that I worked at last year, but no one left a message and I thought that was strange.

Easter weekend comes and goes and then on Monday morning, I miss two calls for subbing (because I had the ringer off at Ama and Jim's while I slept). But some time after 10 or 11, I missed a call from there again, but this time there was a message.

The message had to do with picking up some sub time because a teacher decided to quit. (Don't ask me why a teacher would quit at this point in the year. I don't know. I don't care.) So, excitedly I tell Sonny about the message and he encourages me to call back and agree to help (but not before giving me the 'positive attitude makes things happen' speech). So, I do and get put into the system to cover the class for the rest of the week (and potentially the rest of the year, or at least until the LD person has her baby, since I verbally agreed to take her maternity leave back in December).

But, being it is Friday night and I have endured three days, I am having second thoughts. And I don't mean to make it about money, but in a way, that's what it comes down to. I mean, I don't totally mind the job, but it's not the job I used to have. I am not really a Mythology teacher, nor do I care to become one. But, seeing as there is no curriculum planned for the rest of the year, I am being baptized by fire on this one. And I feel like, if you want me to do all this work, (of planning a class for the rest of the year) give me a contract and don't have me listed as a day to day sub. That's BS.

The other thing, is the kids. Yesterday, I found myself in the middle of a situation that demonstrated why the other teacher quit. I got to the end of my day (I had to leave early for a dr. appt.) and was sure that my BP would be through the roof (it turned out to be 122/74: in the normal range). I have spent part of the evening last night and part of the day today wondering if this job is even worth it.

There's a student that I have been informed to stay clear off. This student refuses to do any work and I swear only knows how to yell. This individual is a loose cannon and no one is sure how to read what will set him off. They also are pretty sure that the fact that Sam and I are pregnant, wouldn't deter him from harming either of us if we got in his way, hence the warning.

This student, combined with a mouthy senior and freshman combo, along with my lack of training in Mythology and the poor pay make me wonder if the end result (a pathetic paycheck) would outweigh the possible consequences (spending time in a NICU with my premature baby that was induced by the stress).

But I can't really say it's stressful either because I don't really care. I mean, when the job that I used to have at that building was mine, I cared. It was my job to care. My paychecks reflected the amount of time I worked, and a level of caring. Again, sub pay doesn't warrant caring. The sub pay in this district doesn't really warrant much beyond a body to fill a classroom.

Perhaps I am being a snob. Perhaps because I have my master's degree and am currently working for way less than I am worth pisses me off. All I know, is that I need to figure it out because I have been entered into the system through next Friday, and I need to decide before then if I want to cover beyond that.