Focus

I am having trouble focusing as of late. I am not sure why.

I can't seem to get myself to go to bed at night before midnight. I know that I should because sometime between 7 am and 8 am, I will hear Lukin yelling for Daddy, who is, of course, at work. Then I want to sleep all morning while he plays and watches cartoons. Then at nap time, I don't want to sleep.

My sleep pattern is all messed up. I don't know if that is why I lack focus. I'm tired. Who knew that being seven months pregnant and having a two-year-old would yield such exhaustion? (I guess anyone who has more than one child...but it was more of a rhetorical question.)

I told my husband that I hate not having a job. You know those email surveys that you get that have you put the cow, sheep, horse, pig, and some other animals in order, and it doesn't tell you why? Then after you do it, it labels each and tells you that it represents how you view certain things. Whichever animal is career is always up there for me.

My husband says that's good that I like to work. He is glad that I am not one of those people who don't have a job and is just content with that. Are you kidding me? Reed once told me that I wouldn't be able to handle it if I were a stay at home mom, and he was right (he thought he was right about everything, but on this point he was). Don't get me wrong. I love to be a mom, but to me, in order to be a good mom, I have to help provide for my children, and currently, that's not the case. Maybe that is why I am lacking fous.