Paparazzi

So I realized tonight as I was driving home and listening to this song (Paparazzi) that I forgot to mention that Little P now has two teeth. The reason I thought of that when I heard that song is because the day I came home and saw the first tooth, he wouldn't let me look in his mouth and I said that he was trying to avoid too much paparazzi.

Tonight, we went out to celebrate Kate's 26th birthday. It was pretty fun. I am really glad that I went. I needed to leave the building that causes me such stress with the people that I enjoy working with and have some fun. We went to this hole-in-the-wall bar where they have really good burgers, I had been told, and chatted and had a great time. I wish we could do stuff like that more often. I came home in a good mood and that was a huge change from the mood I went to school with, and spent most of the day with, today.

Olympics

I just love the Olympics. I love to see when whoever wins in whatever event is the one that deserves to win in that event. Even if they are not from the country I am cheering for at that time. I think that is cool.

Speech space, speech kid and my speech kid

So I talked to my supervisor today about some things that were bothering me. For example, on Thursdays, there are three speech people working and only one space for us to use. In the new space, there was supposed to be two quiet working environments, but there is currently only one. Then, as I sit and pump, I realize that no one is using the room that I pump in anymore (now that the music teacher has moved out of that office). But we are not allowed to use the room (except for me when I pump) because someone is going to use the room someday. Seriously?

The place frustrates me.

Then today, I had this little boy who is a little heavier. He told me that his mom told him that he weighs more than 35 elephants. I don't know the mom, so I don't know where this comment stems from. So I say to him, "You don't weigh as much as 35 elephants. Do you know how much that would be? That would weight as much as...(not being able to think of something, I came up with)...the school. Do you think you weigh as much as the school?" He said, "no. You want to know what I weight?" He told me, and I told him that wasn't as much as 35 elephants. I also told him that his mom was just kidding when she said that (even though I don't know that to be true). But why would a mom say that? Honestly.

Two sessions later, I have the previously mentioned student's brother. We were working on the /f/ sound and he gets the word 'food'. He creates the sentence: "My brother is fat because he eats too much food." I couldn't believe it. The poor little brother. There won't be any self-esteem issues there thanks to Mom and Bro. No. None at all.

In other news, after school, we went to Lukin's parent teacher conference. I realize that I ask a lot of questions, but I know, working in special education, that I am my own child's best advocate. If I don't advocate for him, who will? He is currently too little to do it himself. So it's up to me. But I feel like we came away with some good information about him, and I feel reassured about some things because he's the only 3-year-old that I know, so I have no frame of reference.

Snowy Snowy

I asked Sonny if we could move to Omaha. I am tired of this driving to work in snowy conditions every single day. He said that it wouldn't be any better there because if it did snow, they practically have to shut down because they aren't equipped to handle large amounts of snow. Exactly.

Simultaneously happy and sad

Tonight, I was playing with P on the floor and he was laughing at Mommy and I noticed something in his mouth. At first, I thought it might have been drool. But I think that it might be the first tooth coming through (though I couldn't feel it). This made me super happy because my little guy is growing up and sad at the same time because once he has a mouth full of teeth, we won't ever have another little mouth with no teeth again. It brought a tear to my eye. Sonny said to cheer up. He said that in 25 years or so, I would have grandchildren with no teeth. Thanks Sonny. Something to look forward to.

Rambling tired thoughts.

So I am aware that some football game is on right now, but for the second year in a row, we are at home, keeping it low key. Partly because I have to work tomorrow, and partly because the Vikings didn't make it. In fact, I could curl up and fall asleep on the couch right now. But I will try to stave that off until I nurse the baby. I was up too late reading a book I have to read for work last night, and partly having a slumber party with L-train, even though he fell asleep by 7:30. But it was funny to watch him wake every once in a while and move to another location as I worked on a project in the dining room. He's such a funny kid.

What else is new?

I'm stressed. It's almost like introducing myself. If you know me, you know that I get stressed. The stress is partly because of my job. But currently, it is also partly because we need to find a preschool for our three-year-old, and because I need to acquire a few more hours for my license before it expires in June and even though I know how to get those hours, I don't know what to do with them once I get them. So, like I said, I am feeling stressed. And crabby.

A lady at work, that I view as somewhat like a mentor has given me some advice, and I have taken it to heart. However, if I am to implement what advice has been given to me, it would take a toll on me, personally. My husband says that I am far too hard on myself. But I want to do a perfect job, and still be able to manage my personal life without feeling that I am sacrificing one for the other. And it's harder than it sounds.

I'm sure I will figure something out. And hopefully before I totally stress myself out.

Hard to do

Lately, the hardest thing for me to do, is stay up past 8:30 pm. I am not even kidding. As soon as Parker needs to be nursed, I lay down to nurse him and I totally fall asleep. Tonight, I insisted on feeding him on the boppy so I would stay awake, but I was almost dozing off anyway. Way to be me. But the whole reason for staying awake was so that I could make some babyfood, and that never got done, so way to go me.